Having another baby has always been in the back of my mind. For those of you who don't know me, I have two beautiful, healthy, drive you crazy girls that I wouldn't trade for the world. And I am content with where my little family is at this time in our lives. But is this it?
I joke about this matter all the time with my husband. Wouldn't it be nice to have another baby? Don't you want to just try one more time for a boy. To which Robert replies, "nope, I'm good." A man of many words, I know :). And at times I agree. My girls are a handful, as all children are! But they are also the joy of my life (and you can never have too much joy right)!
Tonight it hit me hard though. Robert and I were throwing ideas around about how we could save a little money, as I'm sure everyone does. Anyway, he suggested that we drop maternity from our insurance as that would save us a good chunk of change a month. Yea it would. But in my mind all I heard was, "That's it. Your finished. No more babies".
I know, I'm young and there is plenty of time to have another baby, but do I want my kids that far apart? Brianna and Sadie Kate are 4 1/2 years apart and that's a lot to me. So I guess this digs at a deeper question. Do I want another baby. Can I do it. The sleepless nights. The constant crying. The cooing. The babbling. The bonding. Am I finished? Whoa. Getting too deep now.
Just some food for thought.
Oh and did I mention Sadie Kate is going to celebrate her 3rd birthday on the 20th and Brianna will be 8 this year. Yea maybe that's why this is all coming to a head :). My babies are not babies anymore
Am I crazy?!?