Thursday, January 2, 2014

To have a baby or not to have a baby...that is the question...

Ok Ok. I know I have just freaked some of you (mainly my loving husband) out with just the title of this blog, ok probably most of you, but I just wanted to talk this out with friends and weigh my options ;).  

Having another baby has always been in the back of my mind.  For those of you who don't know me, I have two beautiful, healthy, drive you crazy girls that I wouldn't trade for the world.  And I am content with where my little family is at this time in our lives.  But is this it?  

I joke about this matter all the time with my husband. Wouldn't it be nice to have another baby?  Don't you want to just try one more time for a boy.  To which Robert replies, "nope, I'm good."  A man of many words, I know :). And at times I agree. My girls are a handful, as all children are!  But they are also the joy of my life (and you can never have too much joy right)!

Tonight it hit me hard though.  Robert and I were throwing ideas around about how we could save a little money, as I'm sure everyone does.  Anyway, he suggested that we drop maternity from our insurance as that would save us a good chunk of change a month.  Yea it would. But in my mind all I heard was, "That's it. Your finished. No more babies". 

I know, I'm young and there is plenty of time to have another baby, but do I want my kids that far apart?  Brianna and Sadie Kate are 4 1/2 years apart and that's a lot to me.  So I guess this digs at a deeper question. Do I want another baby. Can I do it. The sleepless nights. The constant crying. The cooing. The babbling. The bonding. Am I finished? Whoa. Getting too deep now. 

Just some food for thought.

Oh and did I mention Sadie Kate is going to celebrate her 3rd birthday on the 20th and Brianna will be 8 this year.  Yea maybe that's why this is all coming to a head :). My babies are not babies anymore

Am I crazy?!?